Study to show thyself approved

Well, it looks as if my parents have finally given up. They have stopped talking about her and now are allowing me to study in peace. Of course, it looks as if my mom is ignoring me now. At least, she is not conversing with me unless absolutely necessary. I am not sure why. She must be feeling hurt or upset. But what can I do. She really brought this on herself. I also feel that she is at a dead-end. She can't allow me to marry my girl without going back on some of the things she said. And she can't face people and allow them to see she was wrong.

But in all this I see the past repeating itself. My mom doesn't get along with any of her in-laws. None of them like her. I don't think it is because they are against my mom, I just think that she doesn't like any of them because they threaten her. I wish my mom would just learn to let go. In her fear and jealousy, she looks as if she is a control-freak and doesn't want to lose control no matter what. I hope that by taking a stand on my girl (I think I need to give her an anonymous name--perhaps Aida, and I will be Radames), by taking a stand with Aida and letting all know that we will get married--God willing. My parents will be able to accept this and to move on with their lives. She is such a wonderful woman that I am sure that she will be the BEST in-law in the family. I know it! I am happy just thinking about it. All the other in-laws hold grudges and hate and gossip. She will never be like that. I am proud of her.

On Sunday I went to an Indian-Christian Meeting at Aida's place. It was really good. Aida danced to a song. A better word is interpretive drama/dance. It was really good, she has an ability to act and she knows what she is doing. I once read about an actor (actually the guy who played Bilbo Baggins in Lord of the Rings) and he was saying that the major thing in acting is the eyes. Where they go, what they do and how powerful a statement they make. Well in Aida's dance, I could see the eyes, especially at the end. They capped off the dance and made a statement as she longingly and expectantly looked into the skies at her Maker and Creator. What a beautiful act of worship. Unfortunately, many people hear the word dance and think the worst (I used to be this way). But this is not lewd in any way, this was something that was wonderful and an act of worship.

I was proud and tears welled up in my eyes as I saw her dance. She was beautiful and I felt proud to be there and support her and make a stand. There were many Indians that I met and they all seemed happy to see and to meet me.