It's Official

No, not what you think. But I went to visit her on Sunday. A very spontaneous trip. I left at 7pm and got there at 10pm. I got lost. When we met we just hugged and held each other. She had left the door open so I walked in and surprised her. That was nice. I wanted to scare her, but I didn't. :-) We just held each other and didn't have to say a word. It was a comfortable silence. I brought my guitar and we sang a few songs, but we just ended up cuddling on the couch. There was a little bit of temptation, but that died down. I really was in control, kind of. But I wasn't going to do anything. Then we just held each other and talked. I listened to her fears and her worries. She is going through a phase in her life where she is leaving part of her life behind and moving on to a new place. I went through the same when I went to India. But strangely it didn't affect me much. I guess it was a matter of survival for me, I couldn't go back. I was stuck in India and that was it. For her it is a gradual change, a transition. And that is difficult. We sat and talked. And then my mom started calling. The phone was ringing and after *69-ing, we figured out it was my mom. It was already 12:45pm.

I left in a hurry and got home by 3:30pm. My mom was waiting, she was upset and asked where I was. I didn't answer. Since then not one word about my late night. Very strange, I wonder what is going on in their minds.

In any case, we now share a love that is pure and true and amazing. I never realized love like this was possible. Perhaps it is part emotional. But just to have someone love you like this, and know it and to love a person in the same way...that is so satisfying. We are putting each other ahead of ourselves. I am calmer and more confident, and I think she can see that now. I love her dearly. And she loves me.