Church

Today we had "invite a friend to church" day. I didn't invite anyone, because I have been so busy. But I came with my friend, who I normally come with. I saw some others there who I had brought to church before, and they had brought a friend. These people are an Indian couple, and they had a friend that they brought. At the altar call, I kept looking over to see the reaction. I really think that is kind of rude. I shouldn't have done it. But, it is the voyeur in us, I guess. But she didn't go up, nor did she show any emotion. That doesn't mean a thing though, cause when I was not going to church, I came to my present church with my parents. I was petrified that the pastor would point me out, or say something. I felt deep guilt and an incredible heaviness in my heart. Only after the second or third time, I finally gave in and let God back into my heart. It was a huge relief, and the peace...if I was truly brainwashed how do you explain those emotions?

Today the pastor mentioned how it was easier to give in and repent than to continue in sin and continue to cover up sins. He is right, my life is so much easier now (well almost), I just have to follow my conscience...which is not that easy. In any case, that girl that "didn't respond to the altar call," at least not visibly, well she seemed to love the church, when we spoke afterwards. So much for my intuition!