Looking back
Last year at this time I was in India and she was on her way there. According to our plans we would have been married by now. I should have been done with my exams, but how things change. My parents turned around, I failed my exam, got sick...for the most part everything has been bad.
And nothing has been as we thought it would. Last year at this time, my parents said that we could get married, and we were worried about her parents accepting me. The roles reversed completely. Here is the entry from about one year ago, my thoughts (June 8, 2004).
I haven't held on to anything too tightly (well eventually, I was willing to let go!). But I have learned to let go...and to be willing to let go...
You know what's weird? I don't remember a lot of the emotions I felt last year. I remember our time together in India, because it became such a controversy and we ran it over and over in our minds. But I don't remember the pain and depression and the happiness. I guess we remember what we recall...I'm gonna start recalling the good things!
posted by Only You at Thursday, June 16, 2005
3 Comments:
I suppose it won't help if I tell you theres a reason for everything. All I can say is that when my life went awry
and opposite of what "I " had planned, those were the defining times of my life.
Those were the times God rearranged my world to put me back on the path I was supposed to be on, but had wandered off from.(often times not even knowing I did so.) I'm glad you are focusing on the positive. Focusing on the negative only makes us bitter.(and you do not sound like a bitter person!)
I hope you don't mind me reading and commenting. If you do,let me know, and I'll stop. Take care!
Please do read and do comment, I don't mind at all. I actually like to read blogs about real people who struggle. I can't deal with the blogs where everything is perfect! :-) I will check yours out as well, if you don't mind...
I'd love for you to read mine. I try to keep it pretty real. My daughter will be going to college in the fall.... There will be plenty of struggle to read about then!
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