Cynical

After looking up the definition, I am certainly not a cynic. And I am not a skeptic. Although in some areas, I may be one or both, as far as my church goes, I am a doubter. I am being introduced to things in my church which are new to me. They are different from the traditions in which I grew up. They are also criticized widely, but yet, they yield undisputable fruit. I mean one could say that the evidence of the Holy Spirit in many churches is at levels which can only be described as revival.

Yet, I doubt. I am certainly not a doubting Thomas. (Doubting Thomas is a term that is used to describe someone who refuses to believe something without direct, personal evidence; a skeptic.) The painting by Caravaggio, shows Thomas inspecting Christ. But still showing doubt. This is evidenced by the furrows on his brow as his finger is in Christ. Also, the two witnesses, don't seem to be contradicting him in any way. If they were, their faces would show something different--they are in the presence of the risen Saviour! This is the painter's interpretation, of course. It is interesting, that Thomas supposedly went to India, and started churches there. Some of the oldest churches in the world. The fact that I am from India, has nothing to do with this.

So I have been reading scripture, and going to my Church, because the love that is shown there, is remarkable. And as it says in 1 Corinthians 13, "the greatest of these is love." And there is no perfect church, and I am growing spiritually, so I will stay there, until God directs me otherwise (not that God reveals things to me clearly...but that's another story).

Sunday, one of the younger men of the church, said that God wanted to heal people. As people started coming up towards him he started praying over the gathered people. This was happening towards the end of the service, so there were around 100 people there, and maybe two dozen, awaiting healing. One of the first things he mentioned was a "pancreatic" condition.
I have had other recent health problems, so I didn't respond, even though I have had a "
"pancreatic" condition. Then after a few minutes, he once again mentioned the same phrase "pancreatic" condition. I then remembered, in my long and crazy medical history, I had acute pancreatitis twice, and probably a third time. It was due to the drugs I was taking for Crohn's disease. Imuran and Asacol and the third time was Flagyl. It seems that my body is susceptible to drugs, and the pancreas, especially so. The after affects of multiple attacks of pancreatitis (usually common in alcoholics), is that subsequent attacks don't have the intensity of pain, so they may be not as apparent. Also the damage to the pancreas can result in diabetes. Which I was worried about.

The interesting thing is that most cases of diabetes, don't really involve the pancreas, they involve the receptors throughout the body. And pancreatic cancer is deadly, they live less than a year, closer to 6 months, after diagnosis. To me this is definitely of God. The odds and rarity of pancreatic disease, definitely indicate it. So thank you Lord, for the healing. I will go on in faith.