Well I guess things are back to normal, almost. But I do feel really hurt. Deep down inside. It has nothing to do with what we argued about. But it has to do with the fact that I didn't feel that love that I thought was there. Or maybe the fact that it disappeared so quickly. I thought love was supposed to "never cease." I am equally guilty, because my love is supposed to overlook imperfections and faults. I am not doing that.
It is easy to say that you love someone unconditionally, but so hard to put in practice. I need to do that. I think I can. But it doesn't mean that you have to be a doormat. Love can and should be tough at times. I guess combining the two can be a challenge.
So what can I learn from this. One thing is that she does get upset and forgets it pretty rapidly. On the other hand, I tend to get hurt and keep it inside and it does affect me. At what point does it become a grudge? At what point is it human nature, is that natural, is it normal? I think the litmus test is do I love her with all my heart?
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