Update

I am still studying for the exam, my application might be rejected because they want a letter from the Dean of my medical college. I am struggling because I have a lot going on in my life right now. I had a fistula develop, which is a communicating tract between two cavities, in my case, it is in the lower bowel. It is distressing because the reason for it could be Crohn's disease. There are other possibilities, but I was once diagnosed with Crohn's disease and then they said it wasn't. If it is I might have a lifetime of problems. One of them is that I developed acute pancreatitis (inflammation of my pancreas), due to a reaction to one of the drugs which I was taking for Crohn's disease. Now, if I have Crohn's I will not be able to take several drugs. Which leaves only drugs which are less than ideal. I have seen two surgeons and one gastroenterologist in a week. I have started antibiotics. I also don't have health insurance, although the doctors refused to charge.

I became a memeber of my church. It was really good, they are truly genuine people, and I am glad that I am in this church. I feel loved and I feel like I belong--there is a family that cares about me. I am excited about that.

My mom has been upset because I went to visit my friends and she thought that my girl was there. (She wasn't). But I didn't tell her either way, it is her way of figuring out if I have visited her or not. I am pretty upset, what is it they want? I should marry who they want even if it is against my wishes? They introduced me to her, and let me communicate with her and now I want to marry her and they don't. So I should break up with her and marry who they want me to. I thought this type of thing only happened in places like, Afghanistan...

Finally, yesterday, I met my darling. We had a rough start, but things really warmed up and she just listened to me pour out my heart. She is a gem, and I wish I could tell you all the wonderful things that happened. But to tell you in a short bit, we sat down in two Dunkin' Donuts (yes--two), and she listened attentively and I really felt her heart and her care. I am also getting used to her pouting and indecisiveness. This is not bad, just something that happens with her (thus the two Dunkin' Donuts!), and I have figured out that I just have to weather the storms with her and the clouds and rain soon go away and the sun is shining. Sometimes she just needs some love--no matter how ridiculous she is acting (this is not often though!). I am happy and my life in Christ is strong. I am praying and trusting in the Lord.