Forward

Today I went to visit some friends of mine at my Bible study. I have an exam coming up, and they helped me prepare by bringing a meal and allowing me to practice on them as patients. It was a delicious meal and the time was extremely productive. They were all watching me, all seven of them, and it was really stressful as some of them chose to be funny, or obnoxious or as they all laughed at real answers that were made. This was designed to test my unflappability, and my focus. The time was really well spent. And I did 7 full cases, and did well on all of them. What a blessing to have 7 people give up a perfectly good evening to help me. They really love me. There were times when I felt full of self-pity and was depressed and feeling alone. But for the first time in my life, during the process of studying--I felt the presence of God. I felt such incredible peace. I always separated my studies and God. But for the first time, today they came together.

At the end they all prayed for my examination. And one brother spoke a prophetic word over me. Saying that the Lord was with me and had an angel with me. The angel was standing behind me and was going with me. Also he said the Lord had given His mantle to me or had His mantle upon me. And that despite my culture's belief in medical practice, and the pressures and prestige the culture had insisted upon for my medical career, God had a plan for me all along. God has a plan for my future in medicine. And that my exam would go well. And God would go with me. It was quite amazing. I had to write this down. I feel God's hand upon me. Not that I am someone special, but that in all my struggles and difficulties, with my health and with my studies, nothing has come easily for me. Yet, now I can see that in His time and in His way God is working in my life. Not the way I expected it, no summit at the top of the mountain, no great notoriety, but in a quiet gentle way, I am learning my lessons. And growing closer to my Lord.