Two Months Later

She sent me an email titled "Final Closure."  That was about one month ago.

 

She gave me reasons for ending the relationship.  Firstly, I hadn't passed my exams, she wasn't willing to marry into an Indian family and she didn't want to marry a doctor.  She also said that she felt that God wanted her to go in a "different direction."  She said that her decision to leave me was "final and unchanging."

 

I expressed my love for her and she said if I felt that way perhaps we shouldn't talk or communicate.

 

So for her it is over.  Completely.

 

For me, some may say it is denial.  But I truly believe that God brought us together and that is why I continued the relationship for over three years.  Now, I will wait on the Lord.  Either He will bring her back or he will bring someone else into my life.  Or perhaps I will have to remain single. 

 

I have to look at the fact that I might have been wrong and THOUGHT it was God's will when it wasn't.  Or it is God's will and he will bring her back.  There are other possibilities, but I won't get into that.

 

I just know forgiveness is crucial, and waiting on God for direction is crucial.

 

Time will tell.

 

:-)