Five Reasons

My parents have agreed that they will talk to her Pastor, Dean and friend (maybe) if I will keep our conversations to less than 20 minutes a week. I agreed to that and my dad will go up and visit and tell them that her and I are incompatible. My parents arguments are ridiculous. They have spoken to so many people about this and have eliminated people who disagree with them. I will have to go and speak to a couple of people after my exam and tell them my side of the story. This is all because my mom is fighting against this. I do not know why. Perhaps she has a paranoid personality disorder. That is a very likely explanation. Another one may be that she simply wants control, or she doesn't want to lose me, or she thinks that my girl is very strong (just like my girl's mother). Since my mom has been the central figure in the opposition to all this, for her to agree would be defeat. That is hard for anyone. Even if the relationship were to end because we felt God was leading us elsewhere, that would be humbling for me. My parents arguments against this are all over the place:
1. It is not God's will.
2. She is going to be a full-time missionary and I am not.
3. She can't support me.
4. She does not listen to her parents-she won't move back home and go to Grad School like her parents want her to.
5. God is judging me because I am sick, therefore I should end the relationship.
And various other reasons...

The main thing is that reason #3 and #4 contradict reason #2. They have dug themselves in such a big hole, I don't think they can extricate themselves. Their only way "out" is to let us marry "against their wishes" and either accept me back at a later date, or disown me. The other possiblity is a miracle. Well, there is yet another possibility or two: we could be wrong, this may not be God's plan for our lives...

The reason I feel that this could be God is that I have peace about her. The way we met was THROUGH my PARENTS. THEY introduced us. Our pastors and spiritual mentors are not against it. Our friends are ok with it. The only people who are against it are the ones who have heard ONLY ONE SIDE of the story--and that is my parents slanted side.

She also told her dad that I was sick. She should tell him. They should know the truth about me. They may very well oppose the marriage now. In fact, she might even be seriously considering ending things for good. I have no way of knowing. Her mom told her sister that she broke up with me.

So I will sit back, pray and literally leave it in God's hands. I need to be humble, confess my sins, love all who are involved. And wait on the Lord. Wait for a sign for something to turn around or to happen. God is faithful and he will prove it.

I will study and pass the exam and see what happens. I will limit my conversations with her. We are simply not talking. But I know one thing...if it is NOT the will of God she will NOT marry me. But if it is His plan, she will not rebel.