Who is in charge?

I am learning to let go and realize that God has His hand on me (and on her). This is a test of my faith and how much I believe in God. Only a real risk tests the reality of a belief (C.S. Lewis). If I truly believe I will lean on Him and wait on Him. Only He knows the future. I do not!

This is a memorable post from last year, interestingly enough, I saw her last, about one year after this following post was written:

Last year's mission conference.

Closure

I guess I have to find out the reasons she left me and learn from them. I am sure I made mistakes and I don't know if anything I could have done could have salvaged the relationship, but I need to know my faults and how I have hurt her. But I have to wait for God to tell me how to go about this.

But if she ever reads this: I am truly deeply sorry for hurting you and causing you pain.