you know something... people make me sick.  really.  they are all so ridiculous.  here they are... after a big Christian event... a crusade where many had gotten saved... and all they can focus their attention on is the fact that him and i have committed the unforgivable sin in their eyes... travel (shock!  shame!)  alone together and (even more taboo!) stay in the same place together... EVEN THOUGH we did NOT commit sin in God's eyes... and even though the heart of the situation was... he got sick!  and i was just trying to be a true Christian and not leave him because of what everybody else would think and take care of him!  seriously, people really need to get a life.  this whole thing has just blown way out of proportion, and instead of focusing on the mission trip and allowing God to get the glory, people are more interested in knowing where we stayed and giving accounts on how we spent our time... AFTER the mission trip was over.  can someone say "WRONG HEART ATTITUDE?"  gosh, if this is ministry, i don't want it.  seriously.  i would so much rather be a Christian who is not that committed to a church and very committed to God personally than someone who claims to love God and then when faced with a situation cares more about the outward appearance than the heart of the person who was in need.  if this is Christianity, i don't want it.  i want God, but i don't want christianity.  that's the bottom line.