I love him so much. I wish i expressed it sooner... but now.. it might be too late. Perhaps I shouldn't have... but i read an email his dad sent him that said that they wanted him to meet some girl... a doctor in Hydrabod.. the same state that he is from. Maybe this entire time i was just fooling myself. Maybe the love that we shared just wasn't meant for me... because things like that just don't happen to me. I guess we've just come so close.. and now i feel like everything is just crashing down before me... and all my dreams are becoming shattered. i love him so much. i wish he knew that. i wish he could know how much i feel for him... how much he means to me... how much i long for him. he is the only soul mate i have ever known.. he is the only one that has loved me... truly loved me... with such selflessness and purity. i have never known love like his love.. and now it looks like it might have to be taken away from us. i am here in London, once with so many hopes, so many dreams.. yet i knew that it was too good to be true. i wish it didn't have to be this way. i wish the drama of our worlds didn't have to meet like this. but they have. and now... his parents want him to marry someone else. what can i do? i once had it all... i once knew David's love... and it's all i ever needed. but now... i just don't know if things look as certain anymore. his love once sheltered my heart... now is it going to be taken away from me? his love gave me strength, he nourished me, cared for me like no other. he was family to me. the only family i have ever had. what can i do? my hope and trust is in God. Jesus loves me, even if no human ever will. He loves me and will take care of me.. even if i never get married. and you know what? if David marries someone else.. i just do'nt think i ever will. how could i? nobody will ever love me the way that he does... or make me feel the way he does. His love is true... and it is the only true love i've ever known... and ever will.