So I have started riding my bicycle around. I want to be a bike commuter as much as possible. I am not dictating to others what to do, but i feel I can save money, get exercise, and have fun at the same time. So why not? Plus I love to cycle, and don't have as much time, so this way I can get some miles in while going to the library and work. There are two things that stand in the way. Rain, and darkness. I put an LED light on the back of the bike, it will flash and along with some reflectors, keep me from gettting hit by a car. And the rain? Well if it is raining I won't leave on the bike, but if I get caught in the rain, oh well. It could be worse. Lets hope I continue this for some time.

Today I feel a little better about my girl. I think I was just overreacting to what happened yesterday. I wish I didn't say some of the stuff on this blog, that I did say. But it is out there, and I always tell her that once you say something, let it out. That way we will learn discretion.

The thing that really showed me what she means to me, is the card she sent me. And some of the things she has said to me. She even showed me her journal, revealing the most intimate thoughts about me. How much she loved me, and how I was the one. Incredibly flattering, but I just can't believe someone having the ability to open up like that. I could never do that, it would leave me open to being hurt. I mean, what if someone knew your every thought? You would be at their mercy, they could destroy you. This shows how much she does care for me, and how she trusts me. You cannot find people like this, who completely disregard their defense mechanisms. I need to do that with her. It will take time but it will happen.