Perception and Reality

When things are going well, there aren't many entries in this blog. I have to change that. The tendency is to go to her when I feel great, or to let out all the steam in the blog when we are having problems or not speaking. She is right, this method leads to a skewed perception of how things truly are. I was pretty upset when I wrote that post (The End is Near) but I think if you read what I said it was a lot of feelings. This is why I want the blog to be anonymous, because it is one sided (because I tend to write more often than her), and if people really see this they will get the wrong opinion. It isn't healthy to go outside a relationship with problems, until they are addressed person-to-person. I haven't told anyone about these latest problems. No one on my side knows. And that is fine, because I really don't think it is a crucial matter.

At the time I wrote that last post, I was sick, I was lonely, and down. And I lost it. Instead of knowing that God would work things out--I tried to myself, by making an unfair ultimatum. If I just let go, she would have told me that she was going to end the relationship with him. I didn't give her the chance to. I forced things. Let me give her the credit that since we have met, she has not contacted him once. I think once she replied to his email. But that is how much she respects my feelings. It just goes to show, that compromise and yielding are excellent characteristics to develop in a relationship. That and submitting to God. Otherwise pride steps in and we walk over the other person.

Look darling, you know what I really think about you. How much I love you and how lost I am without you. We have something incredible between us, and it is growing and getting sweeter by the day. I love you dearly...and you know that. I can't wait until the day I can declare it and prove it with my actions!