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I must say, today was a key moment in our relationship. Since my last
post, there were serious questions. One of them was her calling to
India. I knew about it, but didn't give it much thought. I don't
have a specific calling, at least not yet. So the question was, how
would her calling and my career here in the US, well, could they
coexist? I believed they could. I could go to India for a month or
few weeks and fulfill the call. No problem at all, except that her
calling is full time. Yup. She wants to spend the rest of her life
in India. I just spent 5 long hard years there, had typhoid fever
twice, septic shock once, various other ailments, and barely made it
back in one piece. I did not envision myself even going back. The
fact that I was open to going back at all was a major step, but to go
India permanently? I am open to it believe it or not.

The thing that upset me is that she never told me about this,
specifically that it might be permanent. We continued to move along
in the relationship, getting deeper and deeper. At the same time she
really felt that this relationship should continue. I thought it had
gone too far, and it couldn't continue until we knew each others
plans. At this point she said she was willing to give up her dreams
to be a wife and mother. And trust me, she had a lot of dreams.
Dreams for her, nightmares for me. But the moment she said those
words, and put her desires aside for me, is when the light broke
through the clouds. It was a defining moment. This is how it should
be, of course, I will be the primary earner (if I ever get a job).
And she was willing to submit. This is why it will work out, and why
we will both be happy. We both know our roles and will stick to them.