Last Call

I called her yesterday, maybe for the last time. What is it about
women that gives them so much self control and patience? She can give
me up even though it hurts her so much! I am struggling here, looking
at the phone and feeling so miserable that we can't call each other. I want
to call and just hear her voice. Not say anything but listen to that
voice, sometimes soft, sometimes questioning, always tender and
loving. I miss her so much. I don't know what to do. I am just
stuck, my life is ruined. It really is. How am I supposed to study? How long will it be before I can pick up a book and read or study? My mind is fragile. I told them so many times that when it comes to studying I need peace and quiet. I need to have a peaceful mental state. I can't study with turmoil. They are not thinking about me. That is for sure. How can they play games with our emotions? How can they do this to me? I really feel like moving out. If I continue to feel this way, I will move out.

On the other hand there is something I can do. That is to call their
friends and talk to them, and even people they know. This will get
ugly, because I have to tell things to make my point. The things that
I tell will make people look bad, including my mom. But they won't
talk to me and they have screwed around with my sibling's lives and now
mine. I was so oblivious and I didn't realize that this could and would happen to me.
Well the future is here, and I am finally the victim.

I saw my sister being forced to marry someone she hated, they finally relented. Then my brother (funny how they treat him differently), broke an engagement. Less
than two years ago, they cancelled a marriage with a week to go, and
then let it proceed. Now my sister is stuck in a marriage where she
doesn't even TALK to the in-laws. It is horrific how they can do this
to her. I just can't believe it. And they don't feel guilty? They
want to ruin my life as well? Well you know, I have seen enough. I
won't get married. I have found my life partner and they don't want
me to marry her. Now they are forcing us apart. Will she be there for
me in one year? Two years? Three? How long will she wait? Even if
it is God's will, what if she gets tired of waiting. What if she
changes her mind? What if some dashing young man, with
self-confidence comes into her life, and she is swept off her feet?
She will look at this situation and run into ANYONE else's arms. I
can't blame her. This is not what she deserves.