somehow, i feel that things are going to be ok.  i know that things are crazy and hectic right now, but today i spoke to his dad and Dr. Shepherd and ended things with my church... it was a little sad but i had no other choice. 
 
so... with all this happening and God moving in the ways that He is... i feel that now that all the bad has happened and is beginning to be mended through communication, apologies, prayer and Bible study (on my end anyway :) ), i feel that God is going to start healing, working, and mending.  i hope anyway.  things cannot be like this for too long, can they?  and although many feel that a break is needed, and a break is what we are taking, a break is not written in some formula written in heaven by God in every situation, it just occurs in some, where needed.  i am not denying the need for a break in ours, i am just saying that just because it happens in all Christian cliches doesn't mean it needs to happen for us. 
 
anyway, we shall see what happens.