Tons of Turmoil

Lots has happened since I last posted. I guess I will have to cover all of that in retrospective posts, and I will have to do that later. To summarize, my parents have been completely against this, and I have gone to a FEW others for counsel. Meanwhile I have gone to see her, and my parents were so upset, they called her parents up. When I asked my parents why they called her parents up, they said they were doing it to be honest or upfront with her parents. I said was it because you wanted me to marry her? And they didn't answer. So what it was really about was that they wanted to destroy things. So what ended up happening? Her parents seemed to like me. And they probably won't mind if we get married. And the other day, my mom says that it was a mistake that they called her parents up. First of all, my parents haven't been saying anything about mistakes and now at least they are admitting a mistake. That is really strange. I am not going to assume that we have God on our side. But we have to do some soul-searching before we claim that we do. One thing for certain is that it is still a possiblity that God wants us to get married.

The people that I went to for counsel also agreed that it could be God's will. One of the couples we spoke to were key figures in my parent's church. They really took on the responsibility and the time to talk to me about the whole thing. I feel that my parents might change their minds, but right now, I have to focus on my exam. That is the most important thing.

On another note, I met her yesterday. It was absolutely wonderful. We had a disagreement, and we couldn't study, but then we just poured out our hearts to each other. She loves me so much and I love her. We went shopping at the Gap, ate dinner and then we went home. What a day, and how much love is between us. She is so in need of love. She is afraid of being loved, because she thinks that she will be let down. I just kept telling her how much I love her. And now she knows. She knows it for sure. We both have a long way to go, but I do feel this is God's leading. We are also growing spiritually. We want to continue reading the Bible, but also resurrect our prayer list, so we can see how God has worked in our lives thus far, but also to enable our faith to grow, by seeing how God answers and can answer our prayers. Finally we want to memorize some of Phillipians chapter 2. I am so happy and so content right now...