Getting better

Well, someone read my blog and added a comment to it. That was nice and it lifted my spirits. Things are a little better. You know, it is true that things do get better, I think we usually let things get us down up to a point. That is where we start to see things in perspective. I know that if I focus on what i have to do--my studies, my exam, and my relationships with my parents, and the person I want to marry--then God will take care of the rest.

There are also some amazing friends who just reach out to me and who truly care. May I never forget those who help, and if I can't help them back, may I remember to help others.

Today I was listening to the Radio and I head a message on Sexual Problems in Marriage.

It was very interesting, that many people who had marriage problems had been involved sexually with their partner prior to marriage. I am so glad that my girl and I have not. It would have been so easy, but we didn't. And that makes so much of a difference. If we never get married, at least we won't have this bond which we don't have the right to. We don't have each other...yet. Sex is a good thing...it is too bad that the true meaning of it has been defined by television and the film industry.

I have to learn to love her. I need to show her that love comes from my heart and that it doesn't matter what she does or how she acts, that true love from me will be displayed to her. As I heard today, so many women hear that someone "loves them," so that they can be taken advantage of sexually. I need to show to her that I love her unconditionally, that it is not dependent on what happens in the future physically with us.

I also heard how women have been physically, and verbally abused. I need to be so gentle and so tender with her. I need to just pour out love towards her. Never should i raise my voice or berate her, but just surround her with love and care and compassion.

This time off between us is really going to be beneficial. It is helping me to be a better husband (if I ever get there). Dear God, please show me if she is the one for me to spend the rest of my life with. I can truly think of no other person, nor do I want any other person, but please show me where you want me to go with my life.